Beyond Shadows and Shame: Embracing Self-Love with Michael Mammina

Heather Hester: 00:00:11

Welcome to Just Breath: Parenting your LGBTQ Teen, the podcast, transforming the conversation around loving and raising an LGBTQ child. My name is Heather Hester and I am so grateful you are here, I want you to take a deep breath. And know that for the time we are together, you are in the safety of the just breathe nets. Whether today's show is an amazing guest, or me sharing stories, resources, strategies or lessons I've learned along our journey, I want you to feel like we're just hanging out at a coffee shop having cosy chat. Most of all, I want you to remember that wherever you are on this journey, right now, in this moment in time, you are not alone.

Heather Hester: 00:01:13

Welcome to Just Breathe, I am so happy you all are here today. And I am really happy just to jump right into this chat with Michael Mammina and just we have so many things to learn from him so many really, really cool things that he is doing currently. But before we get into all of those amazing works that you're doing, I would love and I know that everyone listening would love to know, kind of how you got started in this work and, and what your your story is.

Michael Mammina: 00:01:46

Okay, sure. Well, thank you, first of all, for having me here, Heather. I'm very excited. And I'm, you know, I was I love what you're doing. And I just want to thank you, really from the bottom of my heart for what you're doing. Because it does inspire me to also grow and do more. So, a little bit about my story, you know, is, I guess it's a pretty atypical growing up gay story, which led me to where I am today. You know, I am a master life coach now, but I wasn't always that. There, you know, that's really where I was led where my heart was led to. But before that, you know, I had a pretty, pretty tough childhood, my not so much in my family unit, but outside of the home where I was pretty severely bullied. For being that sissy. And for being overweight, I was very overweight as a child, which, you know, all of that led me to really not being okay with who I was, you know, I was hiding every aspect of who I was. And you know, now that I've been doing so much inner work. And over the years, I've realized that, you know, so many gay children really learn how to navigate and overcompensate for shame, essentially, you know, we knew I knew I should say, I knew I was different. I knew there was something that was inherently wrong with me, because I wasn't like everyone else. So I'm telling you a little bit of this story, because then it'll sort of lead to how I got to what I'm doing right now. Absolutely. You know that that being bullied constantly, you know, I was the kid who was bullied on the playground all the time, who heard names that were so deep rooted ly painful that I didn't even realize the impact of them, you know, and I was a kid in junior high that every day was thrown into a locker and locked in there, and never felt like I had anyone who I could go to including, you know, the teachers and the counselors to support me because I didn't want to rock the boat. And I certainly didn't want to tell them why I wouldn't have been, you know, bullied the way I was. But all of that bullying and all of the pain and the fear that deep rooted fear was something that I carried into adulthood. And then I realized, actually, I was sort of a late bloomer in the gay world. When I was 24, I actually realized I was gay. And I had done such a great job of covering myself out in the world and navigating myself to look like and act like everyone else. That you know, I was just going along and I didn't even realize what was actually going on. I had no i no one around me who was gay that I knew. I saw I had no example. And but I was in art school, actually. I went to school and got a Bachelor's of fine arts and while I was in college, That's when actually I realized I was gay. But I still decided to hide it, hide it, because there was still a shame even within an art community for me at that time. So I was really a master at hiding who I was. And, you know, I've since come to learn that there are stages of shame that most gay children and then gay men, which is who I can speak for, go through that lead them through their life. So life goes on, and I get all the high paying jobs, and I have a beautiful apartment, and I have all the things that we do to show the world externally that we are okay. But inside I wasn't. And I knew I wasn't. And I was hiding my truth to my family, I was sneaking out at night, with my friends having, you know, big time I had dual life at that point. Once I graduated from college, I will note that when I left, when I left college, I was 150 pounds overweight. And I lost that weight. In a year, when the first time I went to a gay bar, someone shamed me in the bar. And I thought, wow, even within my own community, I'm not okay, and there's something wrong with me. So I did go, and I lost the way I was motivated, and my life, you know, I started meeting all these people, and my life changed again, I was doing all this perfect cover up of what life could be like. And life went on, I had big paying jobs, I was vice president of companies, I was the president of a company, I was in a creative, I was a creative director for 30 years. And I was winning awards, I was doing all of this stuff. But inside I knew something was still missing. And fortunately, I was led to a workshop by the late best selling author that before called the shadow process. And in that weekend, I don't know if you're familiar with it. Or Debbie's work, I was introduced to this thing called the shadow. And how the shadow actually holds us back from the truth of who we are, and living life the way we want it to be. The shadow is something we acquire at a very young age, usually under the age of 10. And I work with clients to actually start to uncover these shadows. And what we do is we make something we make the world means something about us, we are meaning making machines naturally as human beings. But as a child, we could not discern Why, what really was truth and what you know, I say, what's fact and what's fiction. So I took it all in as fiction. And then I held on to those shadow beliefs through my life, and they were the driver, they were my operating system, for how I led my life, which, quite honestly, was very steeped in fear. So everything I did was fear based, I believed the world was not safe, I believed I was not safe. So as this gay man now out in the world, who was outwardly very successful inwardly, I was not. And that weekend, completely transformed my life when I realized that that was the that was the the real root of my shame, the core of the shame was these beliefs that I had acquired. No one sort of gave them to me. But again, I was acquired by that, you know, and held on to them. And once I was able to work with that, I was able to see, wow, this is transformational. You know, as a Guinea man, I could actually change the way I feel about myself at such a core level. And I was blessed with a coach who approached me that weekend and said, Hey, I would love to work with you. I'm specifically focusing on gay men, out of the gay community, and I'd love to work with you. And he allowed me to work with him. And from there, I just uncovered all things about my worthiness and about self love and about, you know, these commitments that we make to ourselves. And I was able to shift my life, you know, that inner journey was such an important aspect of the whole journey for me, you know, the author Neale Donald Walsch says, you know, if we don't go within we go without, but I was so scared to look inside. Because I, first of all, I'd never, you know, I was a kid from New York, you know, like, what did we lose if I don't go inside, you know, but doing that and really going in and having that inner journey opens me up to finding the most important person in my life, which was me. Right? You know, really learning to love myself. So out of that, doing that work, still creative director still having his life out here, I also started working on my path to become life coach, because I thought, if I can just hold space, because that's really when life coach does for others to have these kinds of exploration and revelation, right, or that's my purpose in the world. That's my pleasure there to hold that space. And from there, I got certified with the Debbie Ford Institute. And then from there, I've now been part of a wonderful Institute, called the loving life coach Academy, where I have additional certifications as in life coach. And then a couple of years ago, I said, Okay, it's time to leave corporate, thank you for the gifts you gave me. Now it's time to really focus on being a life coach and getting out into the world. And really helping to support people as best as I can to, you know, I use the terminology of, or the acronym fly, which is fly, which is to first love yourself, because I realized that when I did that, that was the real game changer for me.

Heather Hester: 00:11:15

It's so true. Yeah.

Michael Mammina: 00:11:16

Sounds good. Today. That's how I got here.

Heather Hester: 00:11:19

Amazing. Oh, my goodness. I always love hearing people's kind of lifeline, right, the quick, the quick version of your life and how, where you started and how you got here, I think it's so fascinating. And there were a couple of things that really, really struck me as you were talking, and one of them I had already written down that I wanted to talk to you about the shadow belief. And, and, and definitely want to touch on that some more. But one thing that I thought as you were talking about how we those really begin to start creating them becoming attached to them when we're young, so very young, and especially depending on kind of what's going on in your life as as a child, and I'm curious as to whether or not and you're learning about these and studying that those are also kind of, like survival techniques. Oh, and having that

Michael Mammina: 00:12:20

100% You're absolutely right. You know, the, the beliefs that we when when we're children, we form that belief, it's a way that we then learn how to navigate through life, so it becomes our protective, you know, it's our survival mechanism. Exactly. You know, so if I can think the world isn't safe, then I, I'm always done guard, you know, I always say, you know, I did a men's group this week, and I said to them, I still read the room, I walk in the room. And I read it. And I'm not saying that everyone doesn't do that. On some level. I do it for my own safety. Right? I look around, though, is anyone gonna make fun of me is someone got even if no one's necessarily going to do that I still play those tapes, and go, am I going to be accepted? Is this going to be okay for me? So that still became becomes sort of how I'm navigating through life. Now, the Beauty for me is that I can go, oh, there's that shadow belief, right? You just put it to the side, you're safe. You know, and then I evidence in the opposite, right? I'll make sure I talk to people and I feel good about the interaction. So that then I have more evidence that, you know, I can be safe when I walk in a room. But it isn't definitely something that becomes our natural navigating system, until we realize that it no longer serves us. And it usually happens in adulthood when when you just realize that you're just not okay in life is not okay. And luckily you not luckily, hopefully, you have the desire to go and get some help. And when you do, you know, when you discover these kinds of things, that's when you can shift. And when I make those shifts and let it you know, I always say is it controlling you? Or are you controlling it? So when you can control it, it becomes much more comfortable because then you could just say, oh, yeah, there you are. Don't worry, I got this, right today.

Heather Hester: 00:14:31

Oh my goodness. 100% 100%. And two, I think you know, on top of that is that are the first step of that really, is that awareness. Right? Because that's such I know for me and and for a lot of people that I've worked with, walk through life for so long, kind of unaware. There's all this stuff going on, and you're unaware of how it got there, that that you We even can do something about it, you just know that you feel not. Right. Right? And we know whatever you're feeling where it is for that for yourself. And so having that awareness to be like, Oh, okay, that's what that is. And I love that because I do that too. Like, all of a sudden, I'll catch, you know, I'm doing that thing, where I'm, you know, one of one of my big techniques was to, like, always survey everything and to know, like the three possible outcomes of any situation and work it through in my head. So I knew what all the outcomes could possibly be. And then whatever happens, I will already know. I didn't realize I was doing that all the time. I mean, no wonder I was exhausted. But now, it's such a gift to be like, Oh, I know what that thing is. I know what you're doing like, enough. Okay, I'm good. We're safe, everything's fine. Right? You know, whatever your internal dialogue turns out to be. So I do love that. I think that's so interesting. And I really, thank you for sharing that. The name of the book, the shadow process by Debbie Ford, and that's also the institute that you worked with to get your, you started the patient. And

Michael Mammina: 00:16:14

just for clarification, the book is called The Dark Side of the light chasers if you read that book, okay. And it was called the shadow process. Gotcha. Okay. But the book, it's on it, it's, it's very popular, if you just, it's on Amazon, it's on last place, it's called the Dark Side of the light chasers. And there you'll learn about the shadow.

Heather Hester: 00:16:38

That's so I've, you know, heard it mentioned in different contexts, and I never was quite,

Michael Mammina: 00:16:44

I think it was Carl Jung who actually sort of brought it to light, so to speak. Sure, Debbie took it. And now I'm, again, I'm working with the love and life coach Institute, Nancy Levin has also taken it, a lot of work around the shadow as well. And she's training coaches out there people who want to get out there and support people in shadow and other things as well. So when you realize that those shadows of their, well, much of life begins to make sense out there, because then you can go in and we say, you know, we sort of say we want to uncover them or bust them open. And then the intention is to go in and shift your, your understanding of, of how life truly is like then it's what's fact and what's fiction, you know, so we actually go back to what we we call the origin points, like when you actually made that commitment, when you embrace that the world was not safe, right? And we look at it through the eye of the child. And we realized that we're looking at it through the eye of the child, and then we reinterpret the situation as an adult. And we say, okay, so or even as a teenager. Okay, so is this really still true? Right? Is this still hold truth? Or is it something that we can change? And we could look at the situation differently? Not so right? You work through them? It's not quite as simple as 123. Like that, but no, it's

Heather Hester: 00:18:14

not. That is basically yeah, that is exactly right. That is how it fits in. There's a lot and it's, everything's intertwined, right?

Michael Mammina: 00:18:23

Absolutely, absolutely don't realize that. So many of our habits and behaviors and those types of types of things are driven by our beliefs essential. Yeah. You know, so so often, it's just helping for me, it's helping clients just look at your behavior. And that's gonna tell you so much about what you believe. Right? Your outward world is an expression of your internal world. So whatever your feeling inside is going to actually be out picture there. So if you're, if you're feeling anxiety, or stress, like look outside and see where is there, unrest and unsettled in my world, and then what can I do to settle it down? What

Heather Hester: 00:19:09

do I need to do? Right, right, what tools do I need or what? Yeah, that's where all of the having tools at hand or being able to recognize and name the whole just be able to name these things is so incredibly helpful.

Michael Mammina: 00:19:26

Yes. And as I always said, I wish that I had that when I was, you know, 18 years old. You know, like, when I was much younger, so that I can I could have left it behind. And yes, forward. Yes.

Heather Hester: 00:19:39

Goodness, I would have settled for you know, 30

Michael Mammina: 00:19:45

Okay, now, let me take that. Sure.

Heather Hester: 00:19:49

Think I would have known much better what to do with it at 30 than maybe at 18. But still, oh my goodness. Yes. I do have them like when did it have to take so long for me to learn Are these things. And then of course now, as you I'm sure you're the same way, the more you learn, the more you want to learn, the more you want to uncover. And the more you want to just continually, like when you realize that you can do so much to grow and to evolve and then help others grow and evolve.

Michael Mammina: 00:20:19

Yeah. Yeah. Because the thing, you know, it's like, yeah, what I'd love to do it at 18. But I'd love to do it at 30 baht, for me to be as in alignment with the people that I work with. I also feel like I needed the journey for

Heather Hester: 00:20:38

of all Sure. That's part of what makes you so relatable. Right? Right.

Michael Mammina: 00:20:42

Yeah, because you're my thing, too, is like, and I always say this to people I work with as well. If you don't understand the dark, you can appreciate the light. Right? Got to know both. So I know for myself, so much of that was my journey. That was my hero's journey, so to speak, you know, Joseph Campbell's hero's journey, there we go. You know, like, I know that that was my journey to go out. And to live this life that I just was sort of, I don't traipsing through, ultimately, knowing that I wasn't okay. And then, you know, again, so fortunate to find the path, which then led me to spiritual centers, and spiritual travel, and all kinds of things that really has helped me turn it all inside, where I know, that's really where the wisdom lies. So the more we can, you know, guide ourself, and then you know, what I love, Lady Gaga always says, you know, the more we can love ourselves, then it becomes infectious to the world. And, you know, that's, it's so true. And so key, because everything can shift. When we're okay with who we are, when we're not, we can't really believe we can't show up the way we really would love to show up or authentically show up when we are having all of this thunderstorm inside of us as well.

Heather Hester: 00:22:09

Right. Right. That is so incredibly true. And I think too, you know, circling back to the understanding the dark embrace in the dark, so we can appreciate the light. That's a big piece is actually being able to I mean, that sounds kind of like of course, well, that's really hard to do. Right? I mean, to actually I'm just thinking of, you know, certain certain people in my lifetime that I've known how difficult that that would be for them. That that that is just something that I don't, you know, I don't know, that they will ever do, because

Michael Mammina: 00:22:54

that it's hard.

Heather Hester: 00:22:57

Yeah. And you want to be super vulnerable. And there's a lot of work that goes into that. But you know, again, to your point, it is incredibly worth it.

Michael Mammina: 00:23:08

Yeah. I mean, that's, you know, it's one of the things that I've become aware of recently is that so many, you know, because I've been dealing I've been working a lot I've been exploring a lot with shame and trauma, and, you know, the effect of that on on the LGBTQ community. And, you know, so much, so much writing, and so many things that I've realized is that so many people can go through life, completely unaware and stuck. And in his, sort of, on that hamster wheel of self abuse and shame, and, you know, and never, never want to never feel like or, you know, want to take the time to say, well, what can I do for me? You know, they will actually go through a lifetime is your sin without any inner peace? Yeah, some of it, unfortunately, is because, you know, outwardly the world also tells us as gay men, but you know, in the LGBT community, you know, that there's something inherently wrong with us. Not everyone, for sure. But there's still a collective consciousness that holds many people in in that victim consciousness, and they don't ever really get the opportunity to work through that. And I know people who will go to their grave that way. It's very interesting. When you think about that, and and you're right, like how many people will never really even contemplate because it's almost too scary. Like, what is light? What is dark? What is that all about? It's too scary. I don't I don't want to know that stuff.

Heather Hester: 00:24:49

Right. Exactly. I'm fine. I'm fine.

Michael Mammina: 00:24:52

I'll go on as I call it autopilot and I will just continue to slide through life and yeah, Are you am I right in, but inwardly I knew for me, I couldn't do it anymore. Well, and

Heather Hester: 00:25:07

I think, when I had this, for me, when I had this revelation and started on this path as it was such, I was so blown away that all of this was available to me that I had all of these choices suddenly that I never realized I had. So I was like, Ah,

Michael Mammina: 00:25:26

I can do this, you know, I'm allowed to take care of myself, or, you know, I'm allowed to take time to learn and, and that actually wasn't okay. Like, that's not the way everybody grows up or whatever, you

Heather Hester: 00:25:40

know what? I think you know, there's also that where you're just like, holy cow. Hi, this is extraordinary. And I want everybody to feel this way. It's Yes, it can be scary. But the other side of it is so worth it. So that's, you know, that's a

Michael Mammina: 00:26:03

joke and say, like, once I became certified, the first time in my coaching was like, I think should give this away at a grocery store. Like this, something that should be handing out because it's life changing. Right?

Heather Hester: 00:26:18

Yeah. I mean, it is, it totally is, just. So I really wanted to find this this because I keep looking, I made a note, I wanted to ask you, you had mentioned this stages of shame. And since we were kind of circling around that again, right now, I wanted to ask you about that. And if you could talk about that a little bit, because I do often talk about actually, I'm doing a series right now in the stages of coming out which, of course, there's a lot of shame that's, you know, talked about and works through in the stages. But this is even more specific. So could you talk about that a little bit?

Michael Mammina: 00:26:56

Yeah, I'm, again, I'm sort of in this exploration around it, because I am in the process of writing a book. And, you know, so much of it is about the, you know, working through my own shame, realizing what it was realizing that it was there, man, you know, a lot of it, I'm going to reference specifically the velvet rage. I don't know if you're familiar with that. Allen Downs, that He talks so much about shame. And now it is this this guttural core feeling inside of gay men. Again, he's he's marginalizing the community, to gay men, because that's the experience, he has same thing myself, where, you know, he talks about stages of shame. And I, as, as I was learning and reading, I was like, wow, that was totally me. You know, the, the first which is very common is that, you know, when we were were younger, we sort of are in the avoidance stage where we're like, this is that's not me, you know, like, I can't be that way, even though, deep down inside, we know something is different. So everything is done to fit the norm, so to speak, you're going to dress a certain way, and you're going to act a certain way you're going to go, you're going to join the football team, you're going to, you know, go to the dances, you're going to have a girlfriend, possibly, you're going to do things that are just in a way, avoid what might possibly be going right. And that is really just a way of pushing down all your emotions, but ultimately, you know, again, something is not completely in alignment with everyone else. Right. So that's when you really learn to navigate and to in this first stage where you learn to navigate your life. And I know for me, I did that. And it was interesting as I look back all of my friends in high school with the exception of two or all girls, because that was my safe place. Right? And they all thought I was fun and you know, that kind of thing. And, you know, and it was easy. And but like I was going to avoid gym, I was avoiding locker rooms, I was never going to be in any of those kinds of situations. But right, I went to the prom I did all of that kind of thing. So that first stage is pretty influential, until you sort of leave the home, if you will, perhaps you go to college or you know, you you go out and work and and you're suddenly in a different place and and he calls the stage two, which I love is the Overcompensation stage where the shame is almost like your drug and you use it it to motivate you to move forward in your life. And and that's when you will see so many gay men who are very high paid who had many degrees who are fashion designers who have have big cars and vacation homes and, you know, all of those things, they have the perfect body, you know, they, you know, are the social light, you know, I always used to say I was the funniest person in the room, the only person that was not having a good time was me. But everyone else was having a great time outwardly lived like the life of the party. And I had a beautiful apartment and I had more than one home and homes and, and a great car and a great job and, and all you do is overcompensate, compensate, and you use that, as this is my belief, you use it as sort of like a hit on it from a drug, but most where it's like, if I could just get that new car, then I'm okay for right now. But then that goes away. And if I could just get that new boyfriend, then look at me, I'm okay. You know. So there's that overcompensation stage that many men live through their entire life, and never can get out of that stage. Right? Because we don't realize that it's there. Yeah. So when you can embrace yourself when you get to the point. And honestly, a lot of times, you know, it's about like, I just can't go out one more day and try and dress up and look this way. And it's like, because you're so inauthentic on so many levels that, that you just can't do it anymore. And you realize that you need to shift. And again, for me, it was very fortunate to find that weekend workshop, you know, there are lots and lots of resources to to help to help. And again, you don't have to wait, like I did until you know, I was 50 years old, you could do it much younger, where you can really look inside and return to yourself. And when we can, when we do that inner work, and you allow yourself to acknowledge the shame, to work with the shame to realize what motivates it. That's when you sort of move into the next step, which is more of an acceptance, and you realize that just being you exactly as you are is enough. And it's perfect. And that's when, again, you learn to control the shame, versus it controlling you. Right? Yeah, because I'm not going to say the shame doesn't still pop up for me. Because it does, you know, I still be that little boy on the playground with people calling me fat and stupid, and a sissy, and I can hear it and I can go right back to it. Almost like I can see the clothes I was wearing. Now I can quickly march in and go. That is not your truth. You got to hold this any longer. That's right. Yeah, so that's the little bit about the stages. There's lots more, but you know that the shame part is, is here?

Heather Hester: 00:32:56

Well, it is it's such a huge part that I think it's important, you know, anytime we have a chance to discuss it, talk about it, right? Bring it out into the light and

Michael Mammina: 00:33:09

say that bring it to light, please bring it to the light. Even if you're you're talking to, you know, if you're a parent talking to a child who's coming out and you want to be supportive, like just acknowledge it, you know, not shameful way but just acknowledge the feelings that could potentially I underline that be there that are associated with to how they are navigating their life currently. Right.

Heather Hester: 00:33:39

Right. Exactly. Oh, my goodness, thank you for sharing that. I really appreciate it. You had mentioned a little bit ago, you're kind of your, your secret sauce for your coaching program by the coaching that you do is the acronym fly. And I'd love to talk about that a little bit before we wrap up today. Because I think that's so cool. And I love that you that is such a key, very key piece of being able to really step into your life. So, yes,

Michael Mammina: 00:34:17

yeah, I use the acronym Fly, fly, you know, first off, and oftentimes, like at the end of a real or my E my weekly email, you know, I'll always say remember, you have wings to fly for slug yourself. Because when I realized, because this was a big thing for me to have, the person who I needed to learn to love was me. And I did not love me because the world didn't love me in my mind. So when people tried to love me, I couldn't be loved. Now, because I didn't even understand what it was. So after I went inside, the person I fell in love with the most was really me and then I was able to see See everything different and navigate life completely different, you know, I was able to love and accept myself completely. And I always say exactly as you are, yes, no matter what it looks like, it's right and perfect. So when you can first love yourself, then you are in a position also, to love other people. And I don't mean just romantic love, I'm just talking about love life in general, be there to support people living from a place of love, versus a place of fear was the big game changer for me and my wife.

Heather Hester: 00:35:39

I love that, that is wonderful. Before we wrap up, I would love if you could offer either words of advice or words of wisdom, to either a young person coming out, or the parent of a young person coming out or both?

Michael Mammina: 00:35:58

Sure, I would love to. So of course, first love yourself, can't forget that one. For you know, for those who are in that space of, if I come out, then what happens, you know, find your find your safe harbor, there is someone out there who is your safe harbor, you may not even know who they are, but they're out there. And, and allow yourself to, to start there. And and allow your voice to sort of practice to be there to be to allow yourself to say this is who I am, right? It doesn't have to be necessarily run out and swing the doors open of whatever or raise the biggest flag or whatever it needs to be. Do it in your way. And do it in a way that you feel safe. Even if it takes a long time. It doesn't have to be an overnight thing. But give yourself the opportunity to find your inner strength first, you know, go inside, you know, if you need to meditate or journal or whatever, go out in nature, you know, and just find a space within yourself that can give you enough courage. And then find that safe harbor to have that conversation. There's so many organizations in the United States, so many places where people are there to support you, if you don't have a loving space within your family dynamic. And even with your family, it doesn't have to be this. Let's sit everyone down here to hope I do it as you feel it's necessary, yes. So that you're safe. And then on the flip side of that, if you're a parent, you know, just hold space, even if you are really wrestling with it inside, just hold space for the news. And even if you need to take a pause by just saying, you know, thank you for that, you know, I love you. And it might not be that easy. But you know, thank you for that. Just give me a couple of minutes to process this or, you know, realize, as a parent, this person, this child has known this for a long time. And I know that there are talks about this in her company, because I listened to them all. You don't necessarily you may have an inkling you know, my mother said I always knew. Well, I wish she would have said something. One have been helpful. Yeah. So that's what I'm saying. If you get that opportunity, and you and and, and your child is coming to huge space space to listen, and just to be there, don't feel like you need to fix anything, ask questions, you don't need to also even say I'm okay with this, because it's not about you being okay with it. It's about them being okay with it. You know, just be in a space of whatever you need to do to let them know that you are there. Yes, yes.

Heather Hester: 00:39:11

Thank you. I love that answer. Even though it wasn't long from now, as well as it was filled with very important, all very important pieces of information. So thank you. Thank you. And I think also piece of information that very pitting often. So I do appreciate each one of those things you shared. Before we wrap up, is there anything that you would like to add or share or just say In fact, I would love for you to let people know exactly where they could find you. I mean, I'll have it all in the show notes as well, but at the very least let people know that.

Michael Mammina: 00:39:55

Yeah, that would be great. I would, you know, certainly my website Ain't MichaelMamina.com on there, I highly recommend you get my ebook, which is really like it's five, five minute steps to the life you desire. Not just for adults, it can also be great for teens as well. You can find me on Instagram on Michael Mammina. Same thing, Facebook and there, I have now done the Tick Tock world. So you can find me in the tics, world fumbling all over the place at Michael Mammina, where it says coach, Michael, Michael Mammina. You know, just exploring that world too. So but if you go to my website, that's really the best place, you can receive a weekly email. I'm just, this was just beautiful. Thank you for giving me the space to actually let my my story be heard and seen as well. You know, again, I would just say my, my final thoughts are everyone, not just people within the LGBTQ community should really learn to fly and love themselves, but most importantly, live their life authentically. exactly as they are. And if you cannot do that, reach out. There are so many resources out there to support you know, I don't believe for a minute we were put on this planet to do it alone. So it, you know, if you don't do it, ask yourself why you don't do it. And then go do it. Like, you know, so find what you need to get the best life you possibly can and it's never too late, and it's never too soon.

Heather Hester: 00:41:43

Thank you.

Michael Mammina: 00:41:45

Thank you. Thank you so much.

Heather Hester: 00:41:49

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